Mikayah Parsons photographed on October 13, 2018 between the Connie Bostic works that inspired her at Art of Poetry Catawba Valley's tour of Hickory Museum of Art.
SUGAR
AND SPICE
by
Mikayah Parsons
after Sugar and Spice by Connie Bostic
Sugar, spice, and everything nice.
Surrounded by shapes,
surrounded by life.
They label me with
numbers;
"Stay still. Don't
move."
They beg me, "Suck in.
There can always be more room."
Sugar, spice, and everything
nice.
They tell me to smile. I think
that I do.
"No, that's too much. Be
simple. Be you."
I push my chin out, pout like a
doll.
This gets them cheering,
"Now, do that for them all!"
Sugar, spice, and everything
nice.
I'm growing into my
curves,
But they make me
insecure.
"Don't be so
prudish," they urge.
"Be ladylike.
Purge."
During the break, I sneak away
to eat,
But their eyes are upon me,
forcing me to retreat.
Sugar, spice, and everything
nice.
They compliment me.
"Kid, you're doing great!
Give yourself a pat on the back!"
But all I feel is hate, waiting
for them to attack.
They shower me with flowers,
with smiles and applause,
But deeper still inside myself,
I'm hiding from their claws.
Sugar, spice, and everything
nice.
"Don't you want to be just
like her?"
They crowd around me, ask me
for my name.
I put my pen to paper, and
smile behind my shame.
The little girls all smile at
me, they show me how they pose.
Too bad they'll never make it
in the industry
If I'm one to suppose.
Sugar, spice, and everything
nice.
In the dressing room, they
whisper about me.
Their tones are far from
hushed.
"I remember when she was a
fat little thing.
Her hair was rarely
brushed."
I tug my locks
self-consciously.
Their snickers make me
retch.
I hear my name from center
stage.
"Go on, little doggie.
Fetch."
Sugar, spice, and everything
nice.
All I wanted was to be a good
girl, the kind they talk about in the movies and on TV.
All I ever wanted was to be
happy.
But they took my dreams and
used them against me,
And the standards became like
family.
I look in the mirror, stroking
my face.
"One day, little princess.
One day, one day."
Sugar,
Spice,
Nothing else will suffice.